Vivere Memento

Irresponsibility

I lost my iPhone and I’m completely disappointed in myself. I know, I know, “#FirstWorldProblems”, etc., etc.  But losing my phone wasn’t just about the fact that the iPhone was so great, blah, blah, but it was more so the fact that I’ve worked so hard to be that responsible adult that my parents could trust to splurge that amount of money on and not have to worry about something as childish as me losing it.

I’ve had my history of losing phones. Every phone that I’ve ever owned in my entire life has been lost/stolen. I kid you not, every single one. I’ve always had to replace my phones. Because of this shameful history of irresponsibility, my parents have become very used to the fact that I’m just not responsible enough to own expensive phones. An iPhone may not cost much for some, but when you’re taking out loans and paying thousands of dollars for a college education that doesn’t even ensure an adequate future, every penny counts.

Knowing that I lost my iPhone because I carelessly left it at a bowling alley just kills me. The progress that I have made as an “adult” in the eyes of my parents just completely backtracked a thousand miles. Just losing my iPhone screams irresponsibility, carelessness, recklessness, negligence, and every other childish adjective in the dictionary. I mean seriously, how does one lose a $200+ phone? How could you even lose a phone as large as an iPhone? 

Not only did I lose my iPhone within the past week, I’ve also managed to keep the light on in my car for 5+ days and had to have it jumped, and I lost my student ID card. How embarrassing is it that every time I’ve called home, it is merely to report another act of carelessness? Seriously, how do I expect my parents to see me as an adult if I can’t even handle something as simple as not losing an iPhone after 2 months, turning the lights off in my car, or even keeping my ID card safe? All of these things are just mindless acts. Even a 16 year old can handle keeping a hold of their ID card, turning off their car lights, and not losing a phone.

I seriously do not deserve another phone.